Monday, October 19, 2009

monday afternoon in fall.

thing i love about bellingham number 152,033
(okay not really but the point is there are MANY things i love about bellingham)

ahem.

walking home in the brisk, fall bellingham air
crunching leaves against the sidewalk
the breeze makes you shiver
...then you see someone you think you may know, crossing in the upcoming crosswalk
(you cant be sure b/c you forgot your glasses in your car that morning...weird but true)
as the figure gets closer you realise you DO know this person!
and then you hug them
say hello
then keep walking home.

its great
and i love it here
:)


xx

Sunday, October 11, 2009

sick days at the ice box

so yesterday morning i spend 3 1/2 hours in the emergency room with a fever of 102 (i usually hang out around 96 or 97 so thats real high for me), a relentless cough, headache, etc
turns out i have a real bad case of the flu
thankfully its not h1n1, but im feelin pretty low
my fever keeps bouncing between 99.8 and 101.5
im basically bed ridden
the doctor said no school or work for 10 days
work has been really REALLY understanding which has been such a blessing
i sent out emails to my professors today about it; lets hope theyre as understanding about it

amidst all this feeling-like-crap, i have rediscovered that i have amazing friends (not that i ever forgot, but man have they stepped up their game!)
when i got home yesterday afternoon from the ER, jamie had a plate of toast and oranges and some water for me with my bed all turned down for me to collapse into. she then went to the store and got me all the essentials; extra strength tylenol, gatorade, chicken soup, and saltines
shes amazing
really she is
ALSO
today as i was getting ready for my parents to pick me up tomorrow (theyre fantastic and are driving up to come get me so i can be sick and feeling awful with them and not get my roommates sick!) katie stone and fred sprinkle (gosh i love his name!) came by and dropped off some homemade chicken soup and cookies for me!
THEN
lina came by and dropped off some more chicken soup, a card, and notes from Bible study!
seriously
amazing friends
and all throughout the day i kept getting get well messages from ppl
goodness
if i ever doubted that im loved, heres proof that i am.
so thanks to everyone who sent good thoughts or some get well soon prayers
i really appreciate you!!!


xx

Thursday, October 1, 2009

raindrops are fallin' on my head

well i figure its time for an update...
so i didnt get the teach for america thing
which is a bummer
but as we've seen is the underlying theme in our house right now;
its all part of the plan. God has something better in store for me, i just have to have faith in Him that things will work out alright.
as dad says; everything will be alright in the end. if its not alright then its not the end!
so im searching to find something that captures my heart or atleast my interest
something to do when i graduate
which is hopefully this year!
(i basically find out tomorrow if i'm graduating on time)

right now everyone in our house is getting sick
sore throats, headaches, and sniffly noses galore
its wonderful
(sense the sarcasm?)
but i have a wonderful roommate named jamie eileen muller who makes yummy delicious chili for me and heats it up when im on my way home from work
gosh i love her!

other than the sick parade ive just been working a lot and doing school
which, by the way, is pretty interesting.
i like my classes, i just dont particularly like getting up for them in the mornings!
my favorite is 16/17th century renaissance epic novel. sounds intense, and it is. my prof is the hilarious type of crazy, wearing things like lilac suits, ray-ban sunglasses inside, and slicked back hair. hes gotta be pushing 70 and hes such a kick in the pants!
love it.

the rain has finally set in, along with the inherent sense of autumn; my favorite!
blankets, tea, and good books deck the inside of our house just as the leaves cover our front yard.
today's especially fall-like, with the pouring rain and freezing temperatures! (it doesnt help that we're not turning on our heat till the very last possible time!)

tomorrow im going home to silverdale for the weekend
going to see wicked on saturday along with dinner at benny hana's. im pretty excited. tho ive no idea what to wear!

i think thats about it for the update.
this blog seems especially scattered and void of any coherent train of thought, but thats about how im feeling right now! haha
thats all for now
stay dry


xx

Saturday, September 12, 2009

just wishin, and hopin, and thinkin, and prayin

so lately its hit me that this is my last year of college
well duh
but... that means the real world.
with a real job.
and paying real bills (not that my bills now are any less real!)
but; that stuff's scary.
mostly the real job part.
like, what am i going to DO with my life?
i'll tell ya one thing; that sure is a good question.
so, well, as those of you who really know me know, i am a woman of faith, and i pray a whole heck of a lot.
so ive been praying on this topic for a long time. (and by a long time, i mean about a month or so...not that long in the grand scheme of things!)
anyhow
i just dont know what i want to do.
ive done the whole 'i want to be a professional ballerina' thing, granted i was only 3 or 4 at the time, but basically, ive dreamt big before
then there was the 'i want to be an archaeologist' bit of time there where i was obsessed with the history of egypt
then came the most feasible dream; the 'i want to be a teacher' obsession.
since i was probably 10, ive known that i want to teach.
i dont know, just something about helping someone learn something just really tugs at my heart strings
so that was a huge phase of my life. i even started volunteering in the elementary school i went to. yep, 7th through 12th grade i was at Silver Ridge Elementary working with kids, helping them learn. it was fantastic and i loved it! but then at the end, right before college, something changed in me and i deeply questioned if that was really what i was meant to do. i loved it, but what if i got tired of it one day? what if i wasnt a good teacher? what if i failed the children i was teaching?
these questions haunted me and in a swift little tap dance of sorts i switched my 'intended college major' from secondary education and english to music; vocal performance to be exact.
college began, with unsurprising anxiety as its sidekick. being a music major was great and all, but it wasnt what i was truly meant to do.
so english took center stage again and music took the chorus line. however, secondary education was still in the wings, on its way out to the audience to enjoy the show. i still doubted that i would ever be a good teacher; the same unsettling fears arising again. (darn those insecurities!)
well so now its senior year and im still an english major with a minor in music, and i want to teach.
there. i said it. i want to teach.
but heres the kicker; since im about to start my final year, its too late to enter into the teaching department here at western, without extending my time here another couple years. and as much as i love school (i want to teach afterall, so i must have some sort of liking of school), i dont really want to be in college forever, nor can i afford to be in college forever!
so i was talking with my roommate jamie about the subject.
the usual career points came up.
maybe i want to be an editor.
maybe i want to be in publishing.
maybe i'll never end up doing anything in english.
and then i spilled; for some strange reason, everything inside of me yearns to teach. i want to be a part of peoples' lives and to make a difference.
this is where jamie is the best idea thinker-upper ever (not to mention a pretty great friend and roommate!)
she says to me, 'well, have you ever thought of Teach For America?'
the lightbulb comes on.
TEACH FOR AMERICA!!!
why hadn't i ever thought of that?!?
this girl is truly a genius.
teach for america is a government sponsored program helping children get the learning opportunities they deserve, in places which dont always have the best access to these sorts of resources.
its really interesting and a really great thing they are doing.
you should check it out at https://www.teachforamerica.org/
so
basically
i want this.
i want so badly to get into this program.
and believe me, it takes a lot for me to have finally decided this!
i feel like 'the real world' has been a long time coming.
its like
when youre in elementary school you long for junior high as a means to get to high school. when you finally get there, its pretty good. the classes are better and there are more people to get to know. but really, everyone knows why youre living out those three long years roaming the halls; to get to COLLEGE.
getting into western was my dream for as long as i can remember.
then i did.
and it was amazing. everything i expected of college and more. ive met some of the most amazing people here.
so thats it, right?
just get to college.
thats the goal.
but wait; now college is nearly over and the real world is knocking at the door.
how do i answer?
should i take time to fix my hair in the mirror?
do i need to take a breath mint first?
how about make a quick sweep of my house and straighten anything out of place?
i feel so unprepared.
but then,
i take a second and look around me
i realize, im probably going to be okay.
writing those words; im going to be okay, its like its finally hitting me.
it IS going to be okay.
my parents have given me all the tools i need to succeed in life.
if i get in to Teach for America, i know i can do it. i know i can live far away from home (right now im looking at the mississippi delta area, or hawaii, or tennessee, or...who knows?)
i mean, i lived in ireland, and living in 'the middle' of the u.s. is basically half that distance!
plus i could come home for holidays
and oly's wedding of course! (thats something that hit me like a ton of bricks; being maid of honour i need to be there for her!)
and...
it'll be okay.
so i'll apply.
whats the worst that could happen? i won't get in. then there are job fairs and tools and resources to help me find a job. i wont be alone. i have my friends and family here for support and, as always, God and my Guardian Angels are looking after me. (I love you Grandpa George!)
and if i get in....
wow.
what an experience!
i sincerely hope i do.
so
i guess
after all of this, maybe ive gone from thinking maybe i want to do this and hopefully things will work out in the end to i CRAVE this experience and i KNOW things will be okay in the end.
its like my dad always tells me;
'everything will be alright in the end. if it's not alright, then its not the end'
and of course all i need is a little faith.
faith in myself that i can do this
faith that things will be alright in the end
faith in God.


'Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see'
Hebrews 11:1

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

today this could be the greatest day of our lives

oh hey!
its been a while
or it sure seems that way!
school and work have basically taken over my life!!!
while school is getting harder and harder as the quarter passes the halfway point, work gets more intense.
in case you didnt know; i got a job at sears in the fine jewelry/customer service department. so im going through diamond/gemstone/gold/other fine jewelry info training right now. INTENSE. and by intense i mean i get super tired of staring at a computer screen for hours on end! but when im actually out on the floor job shadowing and helping out where i can during these first coupla weeks, its great. i LOVE being around jewelry all day! haha
if you know me, you know i LOVE the bling! haha it great :)
but its just really exhausting b/c i get done with work early to mid evening then i have to do all my homework for the next day. it gets hard not being able to go out dancing in the middle of the week with my roommates/neighbours/other friends. (wow im lovin the slashes in this blog! haha)
anyways
other than that, life hasnt been too super exciting lately
i dont remember if i said it in my last blog, but ive been blessed to have the opportunity to help lead worship at the INN last week and the week prior! it was AMAZING. something i never thought id do. i loved every second of it. the first week i sang we had the INN outside so it was kinda hard to hear everyone during worship and i was really nervous since it was my first time doing anything but socializing and listening to the message at the INN. but the second week, holy pants. it was WONDERFUL. we were in the sanctuary b/c the weather was less than fantastic and the acoustics were sooo great! it was a much more intimate environment with everyone in the first 6 rows or so of the pews, dim lighting, candles at the end of every pew, and myself along with two fantastic gentlemen on guitar leading worship. i got to lead one song on my own; Beautiful One. it was amazing. one of my favourite songs as well :)
well now its wednesday night and as astonishing as it is, im finished with my homework before 11!!!! so we're going to harry potter 2nite. im SO excited!!!!!! gosh im such a child, but i love it :)
as for the rest of this week; school, work, probably some chill time, and just enjoying summer (even though it doesnt quite feel like summer a lot of the time!) OH! so today for english we had class outside for half of it, which was wonderful, but i was in my work clothes; AKA ALL BLACK. i was sweltering. haha. and got sunburned! in an hour! wow im pale. well, more pinkish now, but you get the jist.
OH AGAIN! i got a new computer this weekend!!! its a dell inspiron and very different from my mac, but i think thats a good thing :) i LOVE it, even if my credit card doesnt. haha. that ones going to take a lot of time at sears to pay off!!! but i needed it and it was well worth it :)

well folks
i think thats about it for now
lifes not super exciting right now, but it suits me :)
i DEFINITELY miss dublin
the hustle bussle and all that jazz
the ACCENT
the people of course :)
but i think this is where im meant to be right now.
im sure i'll be going back though. ireland is positively in my heart. its funny how one second i'll be walking to school and all the sudden something will seem so inherently irish for a second... i catch myself daydreaming about what id be doing if i were there now, what everyones doing... but then i have to remind myself that bellingham is great too. that im blessed to live in the pacific northwest! (gosh i love washington) and that even though i dont know what will happen in the future (heck, i dont know whats gonna happen tomorrow!) that ireland will still be there for me to visit again someday

anyhow
peace out trout!
TIME FOR SOME HARRY POTTER!!! :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

hey there beautiful

oh america.
i missed you.
well its been a VERY long time since ive last written
but theres no time like the present right?!?
right.
so
when i got back to washington i stayed in silverdale for about 2 weeks or so and it was just wonderful to be home with the fam for a bit. i missed them an awful lot! they threw me a wonderful welcome home party (thanks to all of you who came, by the way!) and it was just some nice down time after such an adventure!
in the last week i was home, grandpa earl came up from san jose to visit. that was fantastic! its always such a blessing to see him!
now im back in bellingham, on the first day of the second week of classes.
a lot has happened in a week; a lot of ups and downs.
this summer im staying in my roommate ly's room since shes gone to ellensburg to study at central washington university and to be with her boyfriend. in the fall when caroline goes to argentina for a quarter, i'll move about 10 feet into her room. then she and i will share a room for winter and spring quarter. if i can share a room with anyone its caroline! having met as random roommates first year of college, she and i are two peas in a pod. its wonderful to be back at school with her :)
anyhow.
so bellingham.
WOW ive missed it.
its been so gorgeous up here lately; it feels like heaven.
well, aside from all the darn homework and job searching!
so this summer im taking 3 classes (i know; 3 summer classes, i must be crazy! in the summer, classes are taught in just about half the time they normally take in a quarter during the school year..that makes them REALLY hard.)
so im taking english 313; the history of critical and cultural theory, journalism 190;intro to mass media, and geology 101; as my english prof put it- 'rocks for jocks' haha
so that keeps me pretty busy and relatively stressed out.
on top of that ive been working my tail off trying to find a job!
having no money is ZERO fun, but hopefully that changes real fast!
i have a secondary interview with sears tomorrow afternoon; interviewing with a departmental manager for a potential position working under them. as well, i have an interview with bath and body works on thursday, which would be a fun job!
so fingers crossed i get a job this week!!! :)
this last weekend was pretty darn good.
caroline and i were the only roommates up in bham this weekend so we got some quality time together. also, we deep cleaned the house yesterday; it was in dire need of some TLC. on top of that, my allergies are basically out of control and having so much dust and dog hair from one of our roommates' dogs visiting, i had asthma attacks just sitting on the couches. NOT FUN.
oh so about my allergies; i had an allergy test over in tacoma while i was staying with the fam; turns out im super allergic to dust mites and grass, dogs, weeds, and tress. but not cats! so good news to gabby; she can stay! haha.
the worst part about my allergies is...well, actually there are a few. well firstly i have to have dust mite covers on my pillows and matresses as well as wash all linens and blankets atleast once a week (makes for a lot of laundry). i have about 5 or 6 different medicines i have to take every day to stay on top of my allergies. AND turns out i have allergy-induced asthma, which means i have to carry around an albuterol inhaler with me everywhere i go. fuuuun stuff.

well, after that riveting bit of info, i dont have much more to update on...
OH!
except for this;
so when i live in bellingham i go to this thing called the INN. its a non-denominational campus ministry based out of first presbyterian church of bellingham. its WONDERFUL. its one place i always feel at home and at peace with myself and, most importantly, with God.
SO
summer INN has begun as of last week and one of the amazing women in my life, katie stone, is a summer INNtern (cute, huh?) anyhow shes also on the worship team at the INN and theyre always welcoming people who want to join in on the worship aspect of INN gatherings;
LONG STORY SHORT (gosh im making this a 'George story' lol)
IM SINGING AT THE INN TOMORROW NIGHT!!! im so excited.
not just me, dont worry (id be so nervous!)
but theres a few of us who just lead the worship througout the service and im SUPER stoked but TERRIBLY nervous!
so good thoughts and prayers that i'll do okay! :)

well folks, thats about it for me.
hope things are going well for all of you.
keep your eyes peeled (idk why i just said that; i dislike that experession!) for a link to another blog; im thinkin a travel blog!
mmkay.
peace out trout =)
xx

Friday, May 22, 2009

planes, trains, and automobiles...well, taxis

the last week or so has been INSANE.
leaving ireland, while necessary to get onto my trip with oly throughout europe, was difficult.
we got to the airport to head to scotland at too early a time for a person to be awake. i had a TON of weight in my bags, but the man checking us in was really great and didnt charge either of us for the extra weight. (mine would have been around 200euro!!!)
the flight wasnt too bad and we found ourselves quickly landed in glasgow, scotland!
glasgow is a beautiful city and far exceeded any expectations i had of it. we had a great time with the live music, shopping, and wonderful accents! the first night we ended up going to an irish pub for dinner! i found that hilarious; leaving ireland to go to an irish pub. haha.
there was this really great place called the box that had an open mic night the first night which we enjoyed a lot. tried out a mexican place which was definitely better than the mexican i had in ireland last semester, but not great all the same. yesterday we did the hop on hop off bus tour of glasgow and saw some of the highlights of the city. we were so tired, though, that we nearly fell asleep on the bus!!!
last night we went to a place called the garage to see cobra starship along with a couple other warm up bands which were pretty good. cobra starship was amazing; so glad oly introduced me to them!!!
now we're on the train from glasgow to london. got up at 4 this morning to get ready and get to the train station on time. we ended up being really early but figured thats better than being rushed for the train! the train takes just under 6 hours to get to london, but atleast it gives us some time to sleep and see the countryside.
tonight we're going to a show in london and for the next couple of days staying with some of oly's family in watford. then its on to south ruislip until the 27th, when we go to paris for a night. on te 28th we'll go back to south ruislip and then on the 1st of june we fly home!!!
its so unreal to think that this whole experience is coming to an end. it seems like just last month when i get the scared girl getting ready for my first overseas journey to live in ireland for 9 months. seems like just last week when i was finally settling into life in dublin. and it seems like just yesterday that i came back to dublin after being home for 2 weeks during the holidays, only to realize that i loved dublin even more than when i left.
this trip has definitely made a huge impact on my life and how i view the world. ya know, its really not as big as it seems. i think that of all the things that have changed about me throughout this trip, ive become more of an adult; more of my own person. maybe thats tacky or too sentimental or cheesy to say, but its the truth.
after everything ive been through during my time abroad; all the ups and downs; the nights spent dancing my heart out and the homesick phone calls home, dublin has made its mark on my heart. this wont be the last of dublin for me. there's no way i could be content with staying away. sorry ireland, youre not rid of me yet!
only 9 more days on this trip and while i cant wait for these next ouple days; getting to know oly's family in england and going back to paris, its hitting me that i get to go HOME soon!!! im so excited to see everyone. :) i said last week that goodbyes are really hard, and my friend replied 'but welcome homes are so great!' i cant wait for that. to see everyone again and know that things will be just as great as they were before i left, and hopefully even better!
2 more hours till england.
9 more days till america.
:)

see you soon loves!
xx